Transcendent

Music: Tell Me Where it Hurts by MYMP
Mood: Totally annoyed

I am sorry for those readers (whoever you guys might me (;) who have read the obscenities/foul language in my last post. Long story short, my dad likes to be the uh … control in everything … especially my life.

And no, I’m not one of those typical teenagers who always believe that their parents are trying to rule their lives. Just that, he babbled and babbled all because I did not feel the need to eat dinner. Such a simple subject yet he was unable to let it go until about an hour later. Yuuuuup. I mean, even my eating habits, does he always have to be the one to decide? He’s not the one digesting the food!

But besides that (points up), this month … has been totally full of bull.

Some friends some people are. -scoffs- Some guys don’t have backbones! They are shaming the gender of men if they themselves cannot defend themselves against their own girlfriends or families. I am not being sexist here or anything … just that some people are plainly not thinking apparently. (sigh)

Most of the people guy friends I am somewhat close to have been having PMS (yes, the Premenstrual Syndrome we females have) …. first it was MAJ … and even that issue I let go. But then, one of my “brothers” (pretend brothers in school) has been on it since forever! Argslgjlsjlgl; And all the reason for one of my “brother” to have his PMS was because of his moronic, overly jealous, immature girlfriend.

That’s right you heard me (if by any chance the people being mentioned above stumbled upon this blog). I wouldn’t really go into detail since I have done so many times through the mouth … and really, I’m just tired of how immature people are (especially those who are older than me).

It’s a given that individuals are suppose to mature once they age … but apparently, individuals DO age in appearance, but some stay in the hearts of little children. How cute. -notice the sarcasm-

Acting like a spoiled, whiny brat wont get you anywhere. If an individual lets their irrationality rule over then how will they ever survive?

It’s like … Think with your brains, and feel with your heart. There are certain issues that must be addressed by thinking … and not by feeling since if you based your actions purely on emotions, then chances are, results can be drastic.

And some are really judgmental. Can’t a boy and a girl who are friends hang out as friends? Is being a girl that’s not your girlfriend so bad?

The same person with the issue with his girlfriend … his family is so judgmental and not to mention racist (hey, he; my “brother” can be … and so is his uncle … so it runs in the family). I met his family for the first time last Friday … and we were with our other friends …

But the moment they saw me, they automatically thought I was his girlfriend (apparently, they have yet to meet her). Of course, both me and him denied their accusation … and the moment the information passed (the one that I am not his girlfriend), his aunt *I pressume* boldly and rudely asked him in a rather loud voice, “If she’s not your girlfriend, then why are you with her?” ….

I could not forget their scrutinizing eyes. Their gaze held distastefulness … and it somehow made me feel that I was like a mistress of a sort … someone who is a potential danger to his current girlfriend.

I of course not only felt humiliated but angered as well. Who were they to judge me? They don’t even know me - not even my name! In what grounds do they base their judgments?

But the worst part of all, was him being my friend, merely shrugged. WHAT THE HECK?! Aren’t I his friend? Should he not have defended my against his family?

It’s obvious that I don’t have the power to do so. After all, its his family, not mine. He has more of a voice than I would have. Besides, if I were to try to defend myself, would that not only increase their already conclusion of me?

And to top it all off, my real brother is not really talking to me. For reasons, I’m not sure why …

And it really is bugging me. (-.-) I don’t really say it, but of course I like my brother a lot … despite the fact that we seem like cats & dogs … and ignoring me (choosing not to talk to me) is really something I don’t like.

I’m used to him getting mad at me, and then apologizing afterwards … but I guess that wont happen this time around.

Gee, I have such nice relationships with males may it be family or friends.

Music: Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi by ON/OF
Mood: Totally annoyed

You don’t order around respect.

And if you do not want to be said off, then please mind your own fucking business.

I’m not gonna put with your bull.

Cahhs deep inside, I know that you are still the same in the inside.

You are merely putting up a facade so that mommy would think you have changed.

Besides, YOU are not the center of universe.

And definately, you are not the best one out there …. and you don’t know EVERYTHING.

You are NOT always RIGHT.

That’s why I highly dislike you and  your sisters.

I hate it.

I don’t think I’ll ever genuinely like you.

So sorry, dad.